I’m not big on New Year’s resolutions (or any other kind of resolution) so I don’t know exactly how to define this. Maybe definition isn’t important. Maybe it’s just a simple statement.
ANYWAY… I’m tired of being angry. It pisses me off. I don’t like how it feels. So, change it, you say??? I’d love to. I want to really get rid of it, though – not just choke it down. (I’m SO good at that)
Why do I get so angry? How does it serve me? Does anger protect me? How the hell does it protect me?
I wasted an entire day today being angry. I could justify my anger – tell you all the things that happened today that just set me off, but in the end, days are too precious to waste (especially when you’re 64).
Anger indicates entitlement. Who am I to be entitled? I felt that my “rights” were infringed upon today – or more accurately, my expectations. What I expected to happen today didn’t happen. So what?
I don’t know. I’m just angry and I hate it.
I’ve already blown some of my resolutions, so maybe I’ll just shrink the list to this one thing – I resolve to look for the source of this anger and get rid of it. (Just thinking about it burns me up. [How am I doing?})